Motherhood Nightmares

We've all heard of them, if not even experienced them ourselves. The dreams mothers or expecting mothers have that make them wake up in the morning in a panic.

I've had two miscarriage nightmares so far. And although I'm now past the most risky stage of pregnancy and the baby has been confirmed healthy and defect-free by my OB, apparently my mind is still worried aboout it.

Last night in my nightmare I dreamt that the baby came, waaay too early. It was a miscarriage. Only when it was "born", although as tiny as an apple slice, it was screaming. It was horrible.

And even in my dream I was rationalizing with myself, through my tears. I was planning a sort of funeral for it, and thinking about when we could try for another baby and how scary that pregnancy would be, would I just lose the baby again?

When I woke up, it took me a minute to realize, that the baby was still safe and sound, and that it hadn't come yet and that I was still pregnant.

It's crazy how real they can seem, nightmares.